MISSION ONE: Time & Materials
submission A: What could possibly be left over after all this wreckage?

Is this the time or place to get all weepy and/or sentimental? • At the outset of a mission to reclaim something that may never have been meant to happen in the first place • Certainly not • A fresh day is offered and seized • It would appear that over time, someone has made good use of those things you felt you may have wasted • And then, this process [a potentially long process at that] begins • To continue...

MISSION ONE: Time & Materials
submission B: Can a new, solid base be created... from almost nothing?

(part two may likely take place over many phases) • father, son, holy ghost • spiritual, intellectual, emotional • just how many freakin' trinities have you in your own life?
Bettermentationautorium?
Trust me, or should I say, have faith... a better definition of the bettermentation-autorium is forthcoming... time, a gift... shake it, you might be able to figure it out that way (?)

MISSION ONE: Time & Materials
submission C: You've ended up least where expected, again.

How many times have you headed out in a specific direction only to find you've ended up exactly where you didn't want to be? • How many times have you headed out, having no clue where you are going only to find yourself in wonderland? • How many times have you, finding yourself in wonderland thought, I should head out in this specific direction? • How many times have you thought better of this last idea? • How many times are you going to make the same damned mistakes?

MISSION ONE: Time & Materials
submission D: An impromptu mission to rid oneself of wants, expectations and fears driven almost entirely by desire, dreams and, well... fear. [an example of wild?]

JUN 21 It had been a while since we'd run a mission • we'd done this one under the moonlight and just the other day • I felt the crushing urge to retrieve a few things we'd left behind... and to toss and re-toss some things I'd like to leave behind, still.

MORE about time than materials... the mission's success? • As yet, unkonwn
JUNE 30: Submission D - Addendum: Exactly what are you willing to toss? • Reluctance? Resistance? ...fear of god? • Yesterday it was nothing but flowers... beautiful. This morning... For god's sake... get to work :-)
JUN 23 There is an inherent fear when one sets out on a mission to rid oneself of want and abandon his cherished expectations. Hoping to relieve myself of certain wants should by no means suggests that I don't want something. Nor should abandoning expectations imply that I don't want that something to happen in a certain way. I trust this makes perfect sense. Perhaps tonight, I simply lack the vocabulary to describe it. Now, that's something I do want... a better vocabulary.
I only wanted 
to give you flowers
So often he did nice things expecting resulting actions from others. Wanting to rid himself of this behavior... he continued to do nice things. How is this practice going? As yet... unknown.
To be continued... (JUNE 17 - WITH PRIDE)

MISSION ONE: Time & Materials
submission E: It STARTED with, (stopped) and RE-STARTS with a walk...
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This mission is proving difficult to complete due to technical problems with my site editor... It's troubling when your software providers invoke a major upgrade and destroy the tools you use the most... how many times has that happened to you in the last 30 years... I trust they're working on it :-)
it's tough
​isn't it.?