Sketchbook Page 2 THE SACRED NUT?...notes MAY 29 thru UNKNOWN
MAY 27, 2015 MULTIPLE PAGED SKETCHBOOKS... AND JUST HOW BIG IS YOUR _ _ ART HOUSE ANYWAY? • A TOTAL REORGANIZATION OR... A MINOR ADJUSTMENT?
Every once in a while it will become necessary to re-arrange these pages... rearrange the order of things... rearrange... almost everything...
MAY 28 What's inside your _ _ art house? The seemingly overlooked portion of this piece? • Of course we have had a mission built round it... but an almost failed mission.... ...what impact will this have? Does the presentation impact the direction of the development itself? Is the presentation as, or more important than the piece itself? |
MAY 29, 2015 I'VE BEGUN WORSHIP AT THE CHURCH OF THE SACRED NUT, 5TH CHURCH DOWN... ON YOUR RIGHT. CAN'T MISS IT, LOOK FOR THE...
MAY 30 We'll think of something snappy to say. Later this weekend..
JUNE 04... So far flunged he so not knows nor no longer cares where he's been flung to. Holding on to the held ontos? Oh for Pete's sake has he learned simply nothing? • Plans gone wild... thinking things might turn out one way or another when it's become oh so obvious it's much better not that way. • Just letting things happen like the post sailboat racing doodlings... wandering beneath his good buddy Venus who's taught him so much these past 100 days... • All will be fine if you let it play out as it's meant to, stay out of it... don't get in the way... So he thinks |
...no doubt - MAY 31
...so he continues to think. • Holding onto odd thoughts and even believes, sometimes these thoughts are all he has left to hold onto... • Indeed... So far flung from the space inside he's too used to... Inside one's _ _ Art House, sitting and spinning alongside one's neighbors you've not seen for months. • So far flung in god knows which direction, no targeted destination but life's little anxieties...
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JUNE 04, 2015 EVERYTIME I THINK THERE MAY BE A HIATUS, IT JUST KEEPS ON GOING. STOPS, THINKS... NOPE, WE'RE RIGHT ON SCHEDULE.
JUNE 06... the siting of this project? Brighton, Toronto, Manhattan, DUMBO Brooklyn... Belle Park Island? • Not that it's all that important as none of this is real, even if feels incredibly so... apt. • Is where even all that meaningful anymore? I mean, I used to dream of being somewhere else pretty much, constantly...
"Life is a hospital where every patient
is obsessed by the desire of changing beds." ...I rode on deck today, alone on the cabin-top. A beautifully windy n' sunny day. This city over there, Cedar Island up ahead, those beautiful windmills behind me (oh those windmills). I leaned into the "hatch" on the dodger and asked... "you do know that you are living in paradise, don't you?" • I've known paradise, I think... The boat, a nonsuch.
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JUNE 06, 2015 JUST A ROMANTIC'S NOTION?
JUNE 6... Lessons learned. Never write nor even think of love at this time of the night unless you are making it. But then he thinks to ask himself, am I? ...Just another romantic placeholder? ...I've been accused of being a romantic while simultaneously being told I know nothing of love at all. • Rattled, Spun and (how far) Flung. Perhaps we'll look into this further one evening this week... • It's just a layer. • And... not for this night...
Romantic: of, relating to, or involving love between two people • making someone think of love : suitable for romance • thinking about love and doing and saying things to show that you love someone consisting of or resembling a romance • having no basis in fact : imaginary : impractical in conception or plan : visionary • marked by the imaginative or emotional appeal of what is heroic, adventurous, remote, mysterious, or idealized • often capitalized : of, relating to, or having the characteristics of romanticism • of or relating to music of the 19th century characterized by an emphasis on subjective emotional qualities and freedom of form; also : of or relating to a composer of this music • having an inclination for romance : responsive to the appeal of what is idealized, heroic, or adventurous • marked by expressions of love or affection • conducive to or suitable for lovemaking • of, relating to, or constituting the part of the hero especially in a light comedy • (The joke? On me? ...again*)
This will take some time... *as you can clearly see, now is not that time. |
Image shown, not actual size. Truer more believable imagery to be delivered shortly... if and when your hero gets 'round to it.
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JUNE 09 - JUNE 11, 2015 TREADING WATERS... OR GETTING AHEAD OF ONE'S SELF... OR A TSUNAMI LIKE CONVERGENCE OF FAR TOO MANY ISSUES TO CONSIDER - ALL AT ONCE!
JUNE 11... notes and reminders to finish these points, this post (later)... TROUBLED WATERS or truly another epiphany? • Contractual obligations • What happens AFTER one gets too far flunged? Is this to be a concern WHILE preparing to, or while being, flung? • Are these things that happen inside the _ _ Art House? • How much does what else is going on in one's life impact the RIDE one takes? • Does any of this happen in a vacuum, can this RIDE be taken on it's own? Does it NEED to be taken with NO other distractions?
LOOKS LIKE WE'RE IN TROUBLE HERE
I've never been more excited!!! |
JUNE 11 ...do I find myself on the verge of figuring out what I am trying to do here, these damned layers wrapping up falling in love and finding one's spiritual, maybe even a religion. Oh you sacred old nut you. • that being said, I would hate to figure it all out at once then simply have to trudge towards nothing more than an aesthetic conclusion, so... let's just say, this is nowhere near a final answer. Just a convergence, a confluence of a whole big bunch of things coming to a bit of a head... all at once, (again)
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JUNE 09 thru JUNE 11: That's right... WHAT'S INSIDE THIS BOX? • It starts again with a simple question... is the box the _ _ Art House? • what the hell is going on here? • There is no easy answer, it certainly isn't simply a Romantic's Notion (see above) • AND... does one have to be a bloody EXPERT before he falls? • What is the role of the FUCKING intellect in all of this? • Too many things to consider, all at once? The pat answer? Not likely. • Me thinks I've little to worry over this project wrapping itself up before it's even... DONE.
A note to ourselves: Are you really going to belittle something you likely know little about?
JUNE 12, 2015 THE ABUSE OF ONE'S FRIENDS • THE ROLE OF ANGER & VIOLENCE IN ALL THIS • REPENTING ONE'S SILLY MISTAKES... ON WITH THE SHOW • ALL PART OF GROWING UP?
A week or so back I began lashing out again. I had hoped I'd seen the last of my lashings out at my best of friends over Facebook... I am so done with this. • I realize now, it was in response to a frustration I was having over this project. • and for that I am truly sorry.
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A note to myself: you've a lot more work to do on yourself, you little f'n bonehead.
Touchy subject the role of violence in falling in love... but let's discard the issue of violent relationships, abuse. The examples of this are heart-breakingly legion and I've little interest what-so-ever in tackling this topic here... (to be continued)...
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Touchy subject the role of violence in one's spirituality awakening... but let's not confuse the issues; the role of violence in religion, the examples are legion and I've no interest what-so-ever addressing these here... (to be continued)...
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VIOLENCE: 1a : exertion of physical force so as to injure or abuse (as in warfare effecting illegal entry into a house) 1b : an instance of violent treatment or procedure • 2 : injury by or as if by distortion, infringement, or profanation : outrage • 3a : intense, turbulent, or furious and often destructive action or force <the violence of the storm> 3b : vehement feeling or expression : fervor; also : an instance of such action or feeling 3c : a clashing or jarring quality : discordance • 4 : undue alteration (as of wording or sense in editing a text)
...intense, turbulent, furious (well, now often destructive? let's not go there... yet). How intense is one's being inside the _ _ Art House? How turbulent the ride upon the Wild Jesus? How far flung... How far flung... furiously, indeed!
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...intense, turbulent, furious (well, now often destructive? let's not go there... yet). How intense is one's being inside the _ _ Art House? How turbulent the ride upon the Wild Jesus? How far flung... How far flung... furiously, indeed!
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JUNE 15, 2015 TURNING NON-REAL ARTWORKS INTO A NON-REAL ART EXHIBITION, PART ONE... YOO HOO MODERN FUEL • THE FEAR OF GETTING AHEAD OF ONE'S SELF
What of anything good grows in cement? • One's gotta watch 'emselves from getting too far out in front of themselves, no? • I recently found myself imagining my mounting these pieces as a show at our local ARC, The Modern Fuel... Really? No, not really, but, why not? • A lofty goal for a fella who put down his brushes n' blow torch 35 years ago. • The second aspect of these lofty dreams though... far more worth considering commissioning three paintings from that remarkable someone who really does know how to capture the human form... Three images each of the participant in a state of WILD... bewildered;y spinning in the intensity inside the _ _ Art House, AND at the moment of being... far flung... this last one? The deal's yet to be cemented :-)
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JUN 23 The Modern Fuel is not the the intended destination, merely a rumination - Thank you King David.
JUNE 19, 2015 THERE IS MORE... LOTS MORE, IT'S SUMMER, OTHER THINGS HAVE GOTTEN BUSY... (I'm not worried, are you worried?)
JUN 23... I've noticed, I really do have nothing much more to say on this sketchbook entry other than, sure I was worried (were you?) • I found myself out of the groove last week, a bit lost, scratching my head as to why; yesterday afternoon, it dawned on me... my internet was down for three fucking days! What, you don't think that this would have had an impact? ...you were down for 35 years you bloody fool, look at the impact this has had! • We now return to our regularly scheduled programming, with vigor.
In reality... I'm a lazy son of a bitch with way too much time on
his hands. In other words, guilty as and of protestant sin. |
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JUNE 22, 2015 OH DEAR... WHAT TO MAKE OF THESE? [pre-ANCIENT ART CAREER ARTWORKS]
Perhaps the best place to start might be good ol' Corinthians 13... When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child....
...When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me.
OR ••• DID I? ••• 1979/80
JUNE 23, 2015 I FIND MYSELF FALLING FURTHER AND FURTHER BEHIND ON MISSION THREE STACKED UP NOTIONS OF INSPIRATION, IMPETUS, UNREQUITED AND INACCESSIBLE LOVE COMING SOON, I HOPE.
SEMANTICS... Wild...invigorates... ancient... INSPIRATION... IMPETUS? Get to it... And remember to get to this...
Haptics is any form of interaction involving touch (from Greek ἅπτω = 'I fasten onto, I touch'). It can mean: Haptic communication, the means by which people and other animals communicate via touching. Haptic perception, the process of recognizing objects through touch.
Haptics is any form of interaction involving touch (from Greek ἅπτω = 'I fasten onto, I touch'). It can mean: Haptic communication, the means by which people and other animals communicate via touching. Haptic perception, the process of recognizing objects through touch.
JUNE 26, 2015 I'M LEFT WONDERING, IS THIS CHEATING... (just a little bit)
Am I cheating to find out how this might all fit together without first having taken care of the details? The hinges, the ropes and wires; the rigging and pulleys... a systems of things that would keep the the rider aloft? • Is it cheating to ignore the gravity of the situation? • Am I avoiding a true reality, shirking responsibility... skipping steps to have a look at how I might like to see it a few steps along? • What are the rules when one creates an un-real piece of artwork? Are there really any rules when one rides the Wild Jesus?
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JUNE 28, 2015 GROWING IN CEMENT (SLOWLY) "...I NOTE THE PASSING OF TIME"
JULY 4 - 5, 2015 BEHOLD
JUNE 5... Suddenly this has become of the utmost importance... so much so that it calls out for it's own submission under mission three... The other night, I had a dream. The first dream I had remembered in quite some time: "A friend and I were wandering down a wooded path. We came across a Park Ranger. I didn't recognize this Park Ranger but he seemed familiar, I felt I knew him. He told us that there was a little known path just up ahead and suggested that we take it.... (continued below)...
...We took the path, it was quite short. It lead to a large boulder upon which we climbed. When we reached the top of the boulder we found a large metal cross had been bolted onto the boulder. Beside the cross was an unlit candle. The Park Ranger appeared and told us that we could light the candle but if we did so, to make sure that we extinguish it before we left and to leave it for the next people to climb atop the boulder..." • I woke up...
JULY 8, 2015 "I WOKE UP"
Things rarely go quite as expected OR hoped for, do they... they're going along, just fine (maybe?) • It's yet to be seen but... big news... we found the next nut! RIGHT ON TIME. • The news of the new nut was greeted with reserved appreciation • Big changes afoot (well really not big changes). Really just a rethinking of tactics. In any event... if things go according to plan (read, hairbrained scheme)... if things go according to this next hair brained scheme we might just, if we are lucky get to the bottom of this damned "Skewered Heart" business... AND figure out... marionette'ers
How's this all going? We shall see (if we are... you know... lucky today) |
JUNE 8... This will have to do for now... And I saw her today at the reception - In her glass was a bleeding man - And she was practised that the art of deception - I could tell by her blood-stained hands • Jagger & Richards
JUNE 9 ...the other day we were looking out the wonderland windows. Two boys, maybe 9, maybe 10 were ambling down the street on an early hot summer's day. The whole hot summer ahead of them. Walking close, beside one another; bumping n' touching. Smiles on their faces, really no places to go nor really anything to do... yet. One sucking on a freezie, the other quite possibly just finishing a popsicle. • I thought to myself... wasn't that something. Those early summer's days. Just me and a good friend, before all this... before so much meaning and invented purpose ...the want of answers and the crushing need to find solutions... Want this? A bit of it I guess, the friend bit, certainly... I believe I found this bit...
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JULY 9th, 2015 THIS IS THE DAY... I BETTER REMIND MYSELF JUST WHAT IT IS I AM DOING HERE. FOR IF I FAIL THIS, WE MIGHT JUST LOSE IT ALL... TODAY.
A reminder... locked in the back of my mind, I found three sculptures which I had started, not started and never finished a long long time ago... I decided I would take these sculptures, examine them further and then take them to a next level of completion. The first steps were to devise and undertake a series of missions that might mimic activities related to sourcing the material to build these sculptures. The second step, underway in Mission TWO was to model them virtually using a very simple (and free) 3D rendering tool. Give would them some form of "life" and determine if there was any meaning to them; more importantly see if they had any redeeming value as a piece of artwork...
....having worked through this project for three months now, sketches have been refined and the models have taken on more finished form. It's now easy to recognize how these pieces would look if they were to be built in scale... |
While undertaking the series of loosely planned, almost wandering and meandering Mission ONE's I have started to envision what these pieces may be built from and where they might best be installed or how they might come together as an actual art exhibit (as if)... a few themes and thoughts have begun falling from this work... "The Skewered Heart" and "The Sacred Nut" and most recently, "The Marionette'rs"... These themes are being explored along with the inspiration and the impetus for this project underway in Mission THREE were these themes take us, or just go off by themselves, yet unknown.
JULY 10, 2015 AND, WHAT OF THESE UNSEEN MARIONETTE'ERS? (A MISSION FOR THE WEEKEND?) ...or more likely the weeks ahead
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JULY 11, 2015 A SAD END... IS THE MIDDLE
It's a sad end to reach the middle of one's project. I mean, it's the end of the beginning, no? It is a wild ride one takes when something starts anew, the thrill of possibility, the wide opened opportunity... Of course, I'm really just guessing that I've reached the middle, the end of the beginning of this project. I'm making this guess as these Marionette'ers seems to complete a threesome of themes that have fallen from this tryptic. Have I enough to dwell upon, chew on as I see this project through to some form of completion? Is completion even really in the offing?
Will more meaningful things fall from all this, no doubt they will... perhaps this middle I find myself in is merely a resting point. A place to say whew... what a ride. Time to sit quietly in the _ _ art house and spin on all this... just to wait and see... how far flung this spinning will send me.... Skewered Hearts... The Sacred Nut and the Marionette'rs which make it all... so. Such an...
Imperfect symmetry and the launch of a more social way to study all of this (coming soon, I just have to think hard about what exactly I'm going to call this next Facebook page :-) (if it remains simply a facebook page :-) |
JULY 13, 2015 AND WHAT OF THE SIGNIFICANCE OF ANY OF THIS? REMEMBER, THERE ARE NO BIG DEALS... NO big deals whatsoever!
It's always best to get right back at it • In this case something simple I've been meaning to get to... • After all, after the end of the beginning, I knew I couldn't just leave it at skewered hearts and sacred nuts... • We've work to do on fleshing out the imagery for these three themes, their significance? I've no doubt this will all come out in Mission Three • (If and when I ever find time, and the wherewithal to actually get to Mission Three. • We'll leave it here for tonight... we'll leave it here and start a new page of this sketchbook... very very soon. • This is not over in the least. As a matter of fact, I truly believe, some day down this road, in retrospect the seemingly least significant part of all this will be... the beginning (bodes well, no?)
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AND SO ENDS PAGE TWO OF THESE NOTES & SKETCHES |
SKETCHBOOK PAGE 2 INDEX OF ALL ENTRIES MAY 27, 2015 MULTIPLE PAGED SKETCHBOOKS... AND JUST HOW BIG IS YOUR _ _ ART HOUSE ANYWAY? • A TOTAL REORGANIZATION OR... A MINOR ADJUSTMENT? MAY 29, 2015 I'VE BEGUN WORSHIP AT THE CHURCH OF THE SACRED NUT, 5TH CHURCH DOWN... ON YOUR RIGHT. CAN'T MISS IT, LOOK FOR THE JUNE 04, 2015 EVERYTIME I THINK THERE MAY BE A HIATUS, IT JUST KEEPS ON GOING. STOPS, THINKS... NOPE, WE'RE RIGHT ON SCHEDULE. JUNE 06, 2015 JUST A ROMANTIC'S NOTION? JUNE 09 - JUNE 11, 2015 TREADING WATERS... OR GETTING AHEAD OF ONE'S SELF... OR A TSUNAMI LIKE CONVERGENCE OF FAR TOO MANY ISSUES TO CONSIDER JUNE 12, 2015 THE ABUSE OF ONE'S FRIENDS • THE ROLE OF ANGER & VIOLENCE IN ALL THIS • REPENTING ONE'S SILLY MISTAKES... ON WITH THE SHOW JUNE 15, 2015 TURNING NON-REAL ARTWORKS INTO A NON-REAL ART EXHIBITION, PART ONE... • THE FEAR OF GETTING AHEAD OF ONE'S SELF JUNE 19, 2015 THERE IS MORE... LOTS MORE, IT'S SUMMER, OTHER THINGS HAVE GOTTEN BUSYJUNE 22, 2015 OH DEAR... WHAT TO MAKE OF THESE? JUNE 23, 2015 I FIND MYSELF FALLING FURTHER AND FURTHER BEHIND ON MISSION THREE JUNE 26, 2015 I'M LEFT WONDERING, IS THIS CHEATING JUNE 28, 2015 GROWING IN CEMENT (SLOWLY) "...I NOTE THE PASSING OF TIME" JULY 4 - 5, 2015 BEHOLD JULY 8, 2015 "I WOKE UP” JULY 9th, 2015 THIS IS THE DAY... I BETTER REMIND MYSELF JUST WHAT IT IS I AM DOING HERE. FOR IF I FAIL THIS, WE MIGHT JUST LOSE IT ALL... TODAY. JULY 10, 2015 AND, WHAT OF THESE UNSEEN MARIONETTE'ERS? (A MISSION FOR THE WEEKEND?) JULY 11, 2015 A SAD END... IS THE MIDDLE JULY 13, 2015 AND WHAT OF THE SIGNIFICANCE OF ANY OF THIS? REMEMBER, THERE ARE NO BIG DEALS
WHO KNOWS WHAT... OR WHEN IS NEXT?
This project is NOT a priority... It will unfold here as time and opportunity allow ...but... Stay tuned, it may take YEAR :-)